I have been writing a lot about how other people found their meaning but I have not really been able to do the same for myself. It is difficult for me to understand how and why I have been put onto this planet. There are so many theories and philosophies as to how I got to this point. I keep wondering and waiting for some sort of answer to appear from somewhere, but I always come to the same conclusion: I do not know. I do know that I was born on 11 December in the DRC and that as a Sagittarius, I question a lot of things but none of what I do every day makes sense. I know that we can bring logic into this, but this is not about logic.

Someone`s purpose does not begin with a clear logical flow; it begins with what the purpose should be and how this should flow from there. I learnt about the tools which people have to ‘make sense of all of this’ in high school. My Drama teacher taught us about Absurdism, Existentialism and Nihilism. I remember she told us to not let this stuff get into our heads. Imagine having a mid-life crisis at 17 years old! Yes, take what you study seriously and learn to understand but do not think too hard, your brain will run for the hills.

I have learnt that it is easier to just let things be and to accept them as they are. It is such a waste of time thinking and messing with your own mind about why, why and why. I used to do this especially when I was thinking about life being so boring. I had to take that remote and make it my own and I listened to Oscar Wilde when he said ‘To live is the rarest thing, most people exist, that is all.’